New apartment!
I have one. I think I am going to spend the next week unpacking. I should be totally unpack and set up by next weekend. The internet guy is coming on Tuesday to set up my internet. And I'm going to the store tomorrow to get a wireless router.
I want a house, now. :) But, that will come in due time. Maybe after I'm married. Definitely after I have a nice engineering job. Most likely before I have children. Probably not before I get a dog.
Chicken and pickles!
Probably the strangest thing I've done all week is hanging out with my boyfriend AND his ex-girlfriend AT THE SAME TIME! .oO BIZARRO WORLD Oo.
I guess I'm not really weirded out by hanging out with her (but I don't really know if I have a "reason" to hang out with her on my own besides being a 'friend of a friend')... it's more like an "oh man, my boyfriend used to date this girl. They're friends. He used to find her attractive. Or, maybe he still finds her attractive... This is kind of awkwarrrrrrrrrrrd..." type thing.
Random side note: Olympic running is cool. Olympic swimming is better. Olympic diving FRIGGIN RULES!
YES!
I don't have high blood pressure anymore! *dances*
Ellen and Elliott's wedding!
Oh, weddings. They're so cute and nice and make me all full of love and warmth. :)
I like drinking (and drinking songs)
Here's to you, and here's to me;
best of friends we'll forever be;
but, if by chance we disagree,
fuck you, and here's to me!
iPod asplode
So, for some reason, my iTunes couldn't find the correct library. So, I cleared the whole thing and am in the process of re-adding everything.
I hope it doesn't take forever to redo the whole library. ... Someone please remind me to back up my iTunes when I get this library back in working order!
You're perfect! Except...
I can't fix what I've already done wrong (=anything related to school). All I can do is mend what I have and do better in the future.
A GPA is a stupid way to measure someone's worth. GPAs lie... most people with high ones aren't hard workers, and most people with "low" ones work their asses off. I'm not saying I'm perfect. I'm saying school is stupid.
Or maybe I'm too fucking dumb. I should have stopped when I had the chance.
Happy 6th Lunaversary!
James and I celebrated 6 months of awesomeness today. :) Really, we've been celebrating it all week so it's more like a week-long celebration.
We went to the store and ended up making burgers, corn on the cob, and mashed potatoes for dinner (for the two of us + Joe + John + veggie burgers for Bryan, and he's STILL got some leftovers). It was a pretty awesome dinner, I must say!
Stress and excitement!
1. 2nd interview YAY!
2. Blood pressure going up BOO... need to eat more veggies and run around more too.
Love ya! :D
A lot of being introspective
This is my (100*2^2+10*2^1+1*2^0)st post on this blog! :)
Also, I seem to be antsy more. I think I should go back to writing in my journal. I don't know what that will mean for the blog... I could use LiveJournal for private posts. I have one already anyway, so that is always an option. But, using a paper journal would be the best because I like being expressive and writing pictures and (occasionally) scribbling. There's so many crazy things going on right now that I don't really want to discuss over a blog. I'm on a 'need to know' basis right now, really. Trust me, if you don't know what I'm going to be up to in the next month, you won't. I still want to let it out though!
The five-year plan
Because I know I will be asked where I see myself in five years during interviews.
Because I'm tired of feeling like a compass without a needle.
Because I want to prove to myself that I can set AND ACCOMPLISH GOALS.
Because I want to be a better me.
Because I need motivation from myself.
So, I will draft up a five-year plan over the next week or so (seeing as I don't currently do anything except ... well, nothing). I was going to work on it yesterday, but I really
want to put
lots of goals on there; I want to include not only what I want, but what I REALLY want and what I need as well.
Hopefully I'll be able to start these goals during July, but we shall see.
Also, Hancock rules. Wanted rules, too (I've seen it twice already).
Hypertension v. anxiety
I knew I had (HAD!) anxiety problems, but after two separate doctors' visits with way-too-high blood pressure, my general doctor told me that I need to go on a low calorie, no sodium diet. If my blood pressure doesn't come down in two months, he will put me on blood pressure medicine.
At 24.
That's a great way to aggravate the anxiety problems.
At least I've never had a cavity... one doctor's appointment I'll always look forward to.
I was going to write some new poetry, but my brain's a little foggy at the moment. So, check out this little (non-angsty)
blast from the past.
Labels: anxiety, dentist, doctor, hypertension
Being healthy... is it that hard?
Today for dinner we had some breaded tilapia fillets (from the freezer), steamed veggies, strawberries and blackberries, and homemade mashed potatoes for dinner, and I had some leftover salad from last night. For lunch, I had a loaded baked potato (I SAID IT!) - butter, cheese, bacon bits, broccoli - and a salad with spinach, strawberries and blackberries (can you tell Mom is trying to get rid of them?), and olive oil and vinegar dressing which I made myself. For breakfast, I had Frosted Flakes with strawberries. Brian bought me a chocolate shake at Dairy Queen, and I also had some cheese-its for a snack.
Bam-a-lam.
And after dinner, I convinced mom to walk around the block with me. She thought I just wanted to go down the short part of the street and back, but we walked all the way to one end, down the hill to the other end, and back up the hill to the house. Hopefully I can convince her to go walking with me more often, but I think I could do it by myself too. Also, she said she'd go walking with me at the park in the evenings if I wanted to!
I didn't even think "HEY I'm cutting calories!" or "I need to eat less food" or any such thoughts. I just did it. I guess it's not necessarily easy v. difficult, it's plausible v. implausible. Being a college kid with a part time job leans more toward the "implausible" side... but I'll try to do better while I live with my parents and can convince SOMEONE to buy healthier foods for me. I know I have to do the hard work, though!
I hate this stupid vacation
Yet, just like a stupid person in an abusive relationship, I keep coming back.
I hate coming to the same place every year. I doubly hate the fact that our parents never let one of us bring a friend with.
I hate the fact that I can't sign on to Xbox Live for more than 45 seconds, but when my brother gets on the Xbox, he can stay signed on for hours at a time.
I hate not having someone my age to at least TALK TO even if it's that really idiotic, superficial conversation.
I hate the fact that my mom has only told me that I look pretty while I was wearing makeup in the past couple weeks... not that she says it a bunch anyway.
I want to take out my braids but mom won't let me.
I want to go out and DO SOMETHING FUN, but my parents shoot down every idea that I have.
I miss my boyfriend a lot. I hate not seeing him at least every other day.
I hate being jobless and having to live with my parents.
I hate being the fat kid.
I almost forgot, I HATE the fact that my mom smokes in the stupid tiny room, as opposed to smoking out on the balcony. I hate the fact that she smokes at all, but she could at least go outside with it. The room smells gross.
Happy father's day!
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all the old and new dads and grandpas. :)
We had an early dinner at Captain George's. If you love seafood buffets and are ever in the VA Beach area, CHECK IT OUT. It is stupendous! Usually a little on the busy side... at least, it is whenever we happen to go there (weekends).
Brian and I are supposed to go play at the pool later on tonight, but it's getting a little late... Oh well, we're going to the waterpark tomorrow. :)
What I wrote on our father's day card:
To the best Dad ever -
Lots of kids may say it, but
we have the most awesome dad in the world! Thanks for 24/19/15 years of changing diapers, kissing boo-boos, bicycles, piano lessons, birthday cakes, bedtime stories, playtime at the park, swimming, soccer, baseball, football, driving lessons, bitch sessions, hugs, heart-breaks, bad boyfriends and worse girlfriends, hospital visits, stitches, car accidents, friend craziness, graduations, being babies, trying to be adults, staying a wonderful role model to your kids, making other dads look like shrimps, and most importantly BEING THERE FOR US, and loving us no matter how crazy we act. :)
<3 (we signed our names)
Labels: father's day, virginia beach
