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Darrell is mean! I think he likes seeing other people get killed... he passed along information to Mary (and Catie and Steph) that Bryce was using my room as a safehouse... and then the pushed my door open (I could have forced it closed, but Mary would have gotten a broken arm) and I was going to pick her up and tell Bryce to make a run for it, but I couldn't pick her up far enough (she was using holding the bars under my bed to stay at about my height)... so they got him. *Sad* At least Bryce got Ben first. :D

In other news... I never thought I could appreciate the basic white sleeved shirt. And then, Zack wore it today. He is so cute ^_^ Maybe I just like him because he, like me, has anime hair. I have the "crazy bangs which won't go away", and he has that gravity-defying, impossible looking cowlick in the front. I know I'm weird... :)

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 11:19 PM 0 comments

Thanks, Darrell for killing me and my fun for the week. Seriously, playing this game was all I had going for me this week and you killed my day 2 minutes into it.

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 4:29 AM 0 comments

Check out my new poem, opposites confuse.

I worked four hours yesterday (and I have six ahead of me today). Justin Watson kept me company by doing some calculus with me and complying with my general policy of mischief and helpfulness. :) After I got off work, we went to Kroger (where I got cookies for the picnic) and then Dairy Queen (they have this new blizzard called Strawberry CheeseQuake....mmmm, goood). Then I came back and showered and assembled my hoodie, my cookies, and a comforter. The picnic was quite fun (and I came away with some--okay, lots--of quesadillas Sheryll made. :D) I got back and put on some PJ's, then explained a little physics to Steve (or at least tried to...) and then played some Diablo with him and this dude named Justin (not Watson).

You know what makes me sad? Nice boys (and I mean nice in every sense of the word) that smoke. That's such a contradiction! They get minus 50 points. That hot guy on the 4th floor is a smoker. *sad* Anyway, I'm off to reheat some quesadillas for brekkie. :D I know I'm weird... but those quesadillas are GOOD!

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 9:27 AM 0 comments

TAG!!

Look who I found! Tag, you're it. :D

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 12:43 PM 0 comments

In the news

Strom Thurmond died last night. In the words of Allison, "He's too old to die... he's past the normal death age!" What a cool old guy. I hope I can live happily for all my years, whether I have 15 left or 50 or even...! In other news, everyone's trying to even the battlefield. All I have to say is this: nothing is fair anymore. People will always look at you a little longer if you're different from they are, and as much as they may (or may not) try to push preconcieved notions out of their heads, they will always be there. *shrug* I'm not saying give up the fight, but I'm saying if fighting for what you believe in makes you feel good then keep on going.

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 10:22 AM 0 comments

Pondering the past

You know, I was all prepared to give this long rant about how the past couple of days have been crazy and horrible at times. But you know what? It's in the past. So I had (another) weird bank experience... so I had a bad calc test... I do have the rest of my life ahead of me, ya know. And this time, I mean it in a positive way. :) Tomorrow can be fun! Or, if not tomorrow, Saturday!! :D

I've found some of my old poetry... three from the very beginning of college (that makes them about 10 months old) and one from somewhere in the middle of last semester. I have a friend who likes to analyze my poetry and see if anything I write is about him ... *grin* let's see how good he is at guessing! Oh yea, if you want to check out these four poems, or any poems I've posted, click on my poetry link!

You know, it's strange to feel one is easily replaced. And it's not like if one reveals this in public that the reassurances of surrounding party members will make the feeling go away.

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 7:33 PM 0 comments

All I have to look foward to is the rest of my life

Do you ever have one of those days that you feel you're doing everything wrong? When you feel like throwing your hands up in defeat? When you can't seem to stay on track (or even get on track)? When it seems like tomorrow will never come. *sigh* I think I used up my ration of fun for the next two weekends on Friday and yesterday. If there was ever a day I wished I had a car, it'd be today. I highly doubt I'd go home, but I would just drive around a little bit, maybe walk around the park or something. But it's Sunday; so I'm going to go sleep before I go to work. My last summer was over two years ago, GSP. I'll never have another summer vacation again until I make one... which will be way after I get into the work world.

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 4:17 PM 0 comments

I don't think I'm ever getting married. Not just because I'm a lone ranger, or because I've already determined the type of man I want as a husband will never exist, but because I'm so crazy maternal that I don't need a husband to be happy. I'd be just as fine with four kids running around, being crazy, and knowing that I love them more than life itself. So what made me think this? Tony Harper... a guy that I wish I knew more about, but I respect all the same because he always makes me think. I like the way he points out the obvious truth, although I'm trying to cope with the fact that the odds aren't in my favor. Just like in Physics on Friday ... Also, at Macaroni Grill last night, he said something along the lines of me being maternal. I've heard it before but it never really struck a chord until now. Every guy that I've ever liked that I've had the guts to tell has turned me down because they put me in 'friend mode'. Why? Because I'm just so... well, you know how I am. Apparently I'm like a mom-away-from-home, and who wants to date their mom?

Moving right along, Macaroni Grill was awesome last night. Let me tell you, sixteen young adults all together at once, plus a wedding anniversary/celebration party, plus other hungry people in one (non-smoking) room always leads to good times, like Trogdor and fhqwghads. Italian food is so awesome, and Italian food with chicken and portobello mushrooms and spinach... ahhh deliciouso. I think I will take some foreign language classes when I get bored (in addition to Spanish). Anyway, so there's the sixteen of us (me, Wes, Sheryll, Todd, Tony, Whitney, DJ, Allison, Justin, Jenna, Supra, Sowmya, Greg, Dan, Steve and [girl] Jesse) chatting, haggling the wedding people (when a two people were trying to slip out unnoticed we singled them out... not on purpose though), wondering why we only had ONE waiter (duhh... at least two, even three would have been good!!), wondering if we only had one waiter why he had to be the jerky and forgetful waiter, talking about je ne sais pas and laughing all the time. It was good times, and would be fun to assemble crazy people together again.

You know, I was thinking about Love (my friend, not the emotion) this morning, and read the card he wrote for me on my birthday. For the past few days, I've been hoping that the people I care about understand just how much I care about them, just how crazy I'd be to do anything for them, and just how much they really do mean to me. I think that he understands and grasps it pretty well, but not many people understand just how deep my love for them really goes. I want everyone to know something: You are beautiful, in every single way. I really mean it.

I love you a lot.

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 12:40 PM 0 comments

Wearing a bandana on a hot day is definitely not a good choice for me... I sweat so freaking much (and I drink about twice as much water as I sweat out... fun, huh). I have no idea why I do either... I doubt it's because I'm round (because, well, I am... but when I reach my destination I'm not tired. Just...sweaty). I think it's just because it's so freaking HOT.

So today I did laundry... why? Because I ran out of shorts and t-shirts. I have to remember to start wearing my real pajamas or else I will run out of shorts faster than I did last week.

Well, I have AutoCAD to attend to... :D Gotta go print off some of that nice isometric paper!

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 5:39 PM 0 comments

Question of the Day: Do I really wear my heart on my sleeve, or do I just know the answer to the question before I ask the question?

I'm so freaking bored. That's alright though... Going to the gym will be good for me not only physically but also in the time management department. I am always bored and I don't know why... I'm taking four classes that aren't easy which means they require quite a bit of homework, I have a job, I have two tutoring sessions (both on Tuesday)... I guess I just need something else to fill my time, like working out. You know that reminds me, summer is the time you find out who your top homies are; the people you spend the majority of your time with (even if you have a job or are taking summer classes). If I had to choose who my closest friends are on campus this summer, I think I'd defect and say that I'm a lone ranger. Overall for this summer, I think I'd keep my top winners from last summer: Bridget, Ed, and Wes. I dunno if it's good or bad that I get bored so easliy and get things done. Like today's task for the day: dismantling my fan and cleaning off the dust (I put it together--it came dismantled in the box so that it was easier to cart around in the box). I should probably do laundry and change my sheets sometime this week (I'll probably do it Tuesday since I won't have much to do after working out and napping). Maybe I should just invest in a PS2 and get it over with. I keep saying I'll get one... I guess after I get my residual check I can think about it.

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 1:24 PM 0 comments

Did you know that Valentine's Day was four months ago? Today my Purpose-Driven Life reading (which I should have read yesterday, really) talked about love. The entry sounded less religious and more like Christian (from Moulin Rouge) talking to me about how "Love is all you need... love lifts us up where we belong!" I really liked it. It also talked about how people should make time to strengthen relationships by investing time into them (because time is precious, and precious time into a relationship makes it a precious relationship). Yay, something that I don't really have to work on super-hard; I love spending time with my friends ... it just so happens that they are always doing something so I sit on my butt the entire weekend bored/napping/working/doing calc with Justin.

Speaking of friends, I was kinda bored this weekend... it was Triangle initiation! Congrats to DJ, Darrell, and Bryce. Now I will never see them again (sad). Actually, that's not true... I'll see DJ until the end of forever because he practically lives with Allison, who lives with me. Darrell... if I never see him again that will be because he's mad at me (and why, I don't know). I see Bryce daily, but not really outside of classes much (double sad). Speaking of Bryce, he got these nice new jeans. Although I'm not a fan of the dark denim (on me or most other people), if he likes them then good for him!

I don't really know why Darrell is mad at me... I don't think I've given him reasons to be mad at me lately. *shrug* Whatever, I will just hang out until he decides he wants to tell me why he's mad. I'm not going to prod, that never gets anywhere.

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 9:56 PM 0 comments

Although it's now mathematically impossible for me to make an A in Physics (we got our first test back today), I will be fine with a B. I haven't calculated my average in Calculus as of right now (we were supposed to get updates today but they're ghetto), but I'm putting money on having a C-ish grade, meaning I'll end up with a B (which would be really good). Those odds aren't really great for being able to have my full scholarship Fall semester... but my GPA will be high enough to keep KEES money, so if all doesn't go well, I think I'll get like half of the residual check I usually would. Not too bad but, I really would like to have full scholarship again. That's alright, I know I'll be past a 3.0 after the Fall semester. Things might not improve sooner, but they will improve later. :)

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 2:22 PM 0 comments

I feel like I'm becoming different everyday... that I'm losing weight (I looked in the mirror as I was leaving the bathroom and was like, "Whoa, what happened to my chubby stomach??"), that I'm not really paying attention to anything or anyone, that I'm sleeping more ... hmm.

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 11:25 PM 0 comments

Alright, I was tired of my stupid blog not working SO... clean slate! I will work on re-configuring it soon. If you missed my post from earlier today, here it is:

My second job is volunteer work
For those people who are hardcore on my (nonexistant, ATM--soon to be fixed *i hope*) archives, you will recall a little incident involving little Simone, $150 and a credit card. Recall, if you will, that I didn't really want to take the 'reward money' of $50 that he offered me but I didn't want to take it (I let Bridget take it and she split it with me). Well, change $150 and a credit card with a cell phone... I found a cell phone outside the MITC center, and I returned it to the owner today (a nice guy named John). Well, he offered me reward money for finding a phone! What? Okay. So I convinced him I really didn't want it (I dont, I like to earn my money not live off rewards of finding stuff for other people), even after he said, "But you're a college student!" Okay, so I'm a poor, hungry little black girl and I seriously could have used the money to buy food (the bank screwed me over, that story in a few minutes). But, what did I do? I think I just did what anyone else would've done, and what I would have liked for someone to do if that ever happened to me. The golden rule, kids.

Anyway, the BANK! I received a $40 check from Mom and decided to take $5 of cash from it, which would result in a $35 deposit, right? Nope. I only got $5. I have no idea what happened, but I did everything properly; I called the bank this morning and it turns out my little teller girl did everything she was supposed to do, but someone farther up the depositing scale messed up. So the end of this week is mooch city, I suppose. *sigh* I don't like other people doing stuff for me, I like doing stuff for other people. Oh well. Can't always have it your way, right? OMG great idea, I should go to Burger King! Better idea, TacoHut (aka Taco Bell + Pizza Hut)!

you're peeking inside the head of biancasimone @ 11:56 PM 0 comments