Happy Halloween! And Happy Birthday Alyssa!
...And today, I get to do my Thermo homework and study for my Physics test (both for Monday). I'm really thinking about going home next weekend to try to get some food and more money for my car (although I have a Thermo test next Monday... I'd have to study all day at least ONE day). I'm kinda pissed at Lane Bryant, because they're slow as I-don't-even-know-what. If they would hurry up and hire me, everyone would be happy. But, I don't know if they're quite hiring sales associates yet. Sucks for me. I'm stuck with a car and minimal money.
Yesterday, Bridget asked me if I could date anyone, from UK or U of L (because those are the only two schools that matter :D ) who I would date. I told her who. Then we had this big ole conversation about dating people, which turned into a conversation about how she's vain, but she never really realized it. It was quite entertaining. Anyway, last night I went to this party at DJ, Brent, and DLo's apartment (it rocked--and being the DD isn't that bad). But hanging out with some people there made me rethink the person that I told Bridget that I'd date. The person I told her is still at the top of the list, but (like all the guys I've liked for the past 4 years) he doesn't want to see anyone right now. As for the person at the party, I think he's cool and all, but I don't really think he'd date me if he were single and looking (I'm pretty sure he's single and not-really-actively-looking).
Well, I'm going to hop in my car now and figure out if I want Taco Bell or McDonald's for lunch, since the SAC is probably closed anyway... Adieu!
It's getting hard to breathe...
3 months, 2 weeks, 2 days. That's how long it's been since my grandmother passed away. Last night I had this really... I don't know, this really strange dream. It shook me up. In my dream, I knew she was gone. I went through her old bedroom (old meaning what I remember when I was 7 or 8, not her apartment she lived in just before she died), and put on one of her shawls.
I think it was a realization that lots of people in the family see my grandmother in me.
I need a good break. Everything has been rough since the spring. And I feel like it's been going downhill from there. I just want everything to work out. I want to work at Lane Bryant. I want to get an awesome co-op job. I want to have FUN while learning about Engineering. I want to ace all my classes, not just by using my ability to read, absorb, and recall; by STUDYING, hard and often. I want to lose weight. And not just to lose weight, but to get fit. I want to feel close to God.
People say that you have to take it one step at a time. Slow and steady, right? But it seems to be easier to just let everything slide, instead of working hard for what I believe in. I need to change how I am. I can't just sit on my butt anymore. I gotta work hard. Strike that. I gotta work HARD.
Monty Python and the Holy Grail learns about Thermodynamics!
The other day I went over to Bryce's apartment and FINALLY hung out with him for a little while. He laid down on the couch while we were watching TV and I laid on his chest. If I wouldn't have been getting sick, it would have been a lot more comfortable. Boys just radiate heat. What can I say... But I still loved it. Bryce is just comfortable. That's why I love him. Maybe I should get a big ole Golden retriever to take his place, lol :)
I've got an interview coming up Wednesday and I need to do laundry. And put gas in my car. Mom is sending me money sometime soon, so hopefully I'll be able to do all that and still have a little money left over for, um... probably for putting into my car again if Lane Bryant never calls me back! Justin suggested that I call them back Thursday if they haven't called me by then. Sounds like a good idea!
Anyway, I'm going to take a shower shortly. Then do most of my logic design homework. Adios!
something special like that
So... this week will suck.
I actually got the nerve to tell Ben I like him (yay me!)... and he said that he already knew and that he didn't want to be in a relationship right now (aww), but he likes being my friend (yay :D). So once again, I am forced to hate girls that break the hearts of hopeless romantics that I later fall for. After I talked to Ben a little more, I talked to the person that was pissing me off, and proceeded to only get pissed off more. It ended in the person calling me a bitch (and he better be glad he didn't say it to my face because I'm pretty sure I would have punched him--hard). Now he wants to 'talk civilly'. But before he said that, he said that he called me a bitch because I was pushing his buttons. That tells me HE isn't ready to talk civilly. What a jackass.
I also get to do midterm reports this week. Hopefully I can get them all done before tomorrow. I might not be able to talk to Dr. M orisson (yes, I spaced it for a reason) because he has office hours when I have class, except for like 20 minutes. So... here's to hoping.
Then I have an interview on Wednesday with Test & Controls... hopefully I will remember to put gas in my car (*sigh*) before I go, or else I might not make it back. Hopefully, Lane Bryant will call me back for an interview sometime this week! :) That would rock because then I could have an awesome part-time job.
I get to volunteer with SWE and KYana Girl Scouts this weekend too. Hope it'll be fun, but kids are usually entertaining and interesting if nothing else. :D
What a crazy week!
Well... I got a
68% 65% on my Prob and Stats test (yuck), a 104% on my Logic Design test (WOOHOO!!!), and I haven't gotten my Physics quiz back yet, although I'm sure it will suck.
NAESC was great. I loved the fact that it was really calm and laid back. Although dressing up is sometimes fun too. We got a lot done--we retained our top 3 (meaning I am the Vice Pres of Communication), and next year's regionals will be at UK! That means U of L only has to drive an hour and a half! YAY! I tried hitting on Ben this weekend, but I don't really know if he likes me or what. I guess I'll just have to talk to my friend Mark, who goes to school with Ben, to see if he has any insider information. It would be so awesome if I could date him... because dating someone with the same major as you just seems to be fun! But besides that, Ben is really cool. PLUS, I got my car back (YAAAAY!!!), so I could go to Lexington and visit him as much as he could come to Louisville and visit me.
Anyway, I've got some stuff to do before the weekend is totally done for me (involving NAESC, homework, catching up on the blogs, and some personal stuff I have to attend to). So, I'll blog to my faithful readers sometime soon. :)
no visitors?!
So, since none of my friends have decided to visit my site (I haven't gotten any comments since updating my page, you jerks), I'm getting new friends! You're all cut off. Except Mike and Bridget.
Mommy, yes... I slapped my cute little navbar up there (like all the fun people) so maybe now I'll get some randomness.
And by the way... to the person that pissed me off today...
fuck you. I really am in love with you, but there's always gotta be drama behind us hanging out (or for that matter,
not hanging out). Maybe we should just stick to our respective corners of campus, the social scale, life in general, and the world. We are sort of drifting... but you seem to like being away from me better than when we were practically attached at the hip a few years ago. I used to love talking to you, but now it seems like I'm always upsetting you. Maybe we just don't understand each other anymore, since I'm full-time-school-unemployed-depressed-single-angry-sullen and you're part-time-work-full-time-school-happy-dating-someone-great. Or maybe I should just stop thinking about you. :(
Simoney's weekly checklist
So... I have LOTS of stuff to do this week, including, but not limited to, the following: 3
tests, a
quiz, and 3 (big)
homeworks. (If you're counting, there's one homework I don't have to turn in, it's just for practice.)
Monday:
Thermo Test (open book & 1 equation sheet) - I kind of freaked out during the test because he gave us an equation that wasn't in the book (at least not directly). But then I realized that he gave us units for what we were supposed to be calculating on top, so I sorta derived the equation myself. I'm cool. :) I think I did well on it, too - Volunteering with PEACC during Take Back the Night
- Reading up on the two interview offers I got today (sounds simple, I know... but it won't be)
- Get my Coming OUT Day shirt
Tuesday:
- Tutor Julie and her friend in 252
- Participate in Coming OUT for like 5 minutes
- Talk to Sandy after seminar about my interviews
- Turn in Logic Design homework
- Work on the Logic practice test
- Go out to eat with Sheryll
Wednesday:
- (no Prob & Stats homework, thank God!)
- Turn in Thermo homework
- Porter Scholar Junior-Senior seminar
- Finish my practice test for Logic
- Read Physics and do some homework problems to practice for the quiz
Thursday:
- Take my Logic test
- Crank out my Prob & Stats homework
- Study hardcore for Prob & Stats (cause I don't get it right now)
Friday:
- Prob & Stats test
- Turn in Prob & Stats homework
- Physics quiz
- Go home (yaaay!) with D
Saturday:
- Get my hair did
- Hang out with some UK people (maybe)
Sunday:
- Church!
- Think about the Career Fair and NAESC while I relax!
Hmm... Maybe I should print this out!
Now you know that I won't be blogging until Sunday or Monday. Until then, HAPPY FALL BREAK for people that go to my school. :) See you Monday in blogland, and Wednesday on campus!
